No Where To Go, No Where I Belong

After my last blog it might be the medication but today I'm feeling like I really do have no where to go and no where I really belong.

Currently I am dividing my living between my mother's for meals, laundry, showers, etc and my sister's for a room and a spot to spend the time I don't spend at mom's. At the end of June that will be over. My sister's place is being sold and my mother does not have the room for me to live full time with her. There is no viable housing in this small hamlet and, I have little hope, of living space which I could possibly rent.

I can not go and live with any of my daughters, they have lives and it's unfair to expect them to accommodate me. The three in Edmonton have no room and the other is out of the country. I'm too young for any assisted living program and not really capable of living on my own due to mental and physical limitations. Plus, in all honesty, I am terrified of trying to live alone because last time I almost burned the house down and I forget to eat or take my medication.

I really feel like I do not belong anywhere. I can't interact with people on a daily basis and every time I've attempted to be a friend I've failed. I do not wish to live in a town or city where I don't know anyone and I don't feel like I could survive living in Edmonton again. Unfortunately it all leaves me with nowhere to go and no where I belong.