Now that I will finally be getting my own place here in Smith, I have been thinking it's time to start a whole new chapter in "my" life. The reason for the quotes is I don't think of myself as a whole person and I know my choices also effect others; something very few family members bother to consider, actually very few people.
Perhaps that will be a starting point for me...... to stop caring what others think or how what I do effects them, especially family! Of course that is a huge part of who I've always known myself to be. So, maybe time to kill me as I know me! Mostly this comes from hearing multiple times from family to just " stop caring what anyone thinks or feels" to " stop being so emotional" and from most other people that "You need to control your emotions and reactions" Seem no one truly cares what anyone else feels these days as long as they get what they want;-(
Time for me to disappear again and shut down. Right now I really, really wish I had the guts to commit suicide!
I Took The Pledge
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- Dot J
- I am a person trying to grow and change who is interested in sharing some insights and thoughts with others.
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you know if I had the guts to kill my self I would do it Dot. I am not happy- :(
I am glad you have a new place now Dot.
To Quote myself "Perhaps that will be a starting point for me...... to stop caring what others think or how what I do effects them, especially family"
Sometimes I think it would be a lot easier if I could just stop caring so damn much, other times it's suicide that seems as if it would be easier. Biggest problem with that is I might not succeed and then be trapped inside a worthless body.
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