PAIN!!!!

I suffer from almost constant pain! It's been that way for me for the last 27 years, with each year getting progressively worse. I think I've tried just about every painkiller out there; but, few work to do more than make me feel doped and still in pain. I've also tried many "natural" remedies, vitamin "therapies" and herbal concoctions. Some days, like today, I wonder is life really worth all this pain, keep in mind I am talking about physical pain here, and will anything ever help.

There have been "suggestions" by a few people I've known who think it is all "in my head"; but, my doctors and I know it's not! I have fibromyalgia, osteoarthritis, Chronic Pain Syndrome and migraines. to top it all off there are days where I get "toothaches"  when I have no teeth (dentures only). Unfortunately, the only painkillers I have ever found work for me are "too strong" according to most doctors. I can get some painkillers,  like Advil Migraine to work on some pains (headaches) and the anti-inflammatory medications were helping with the arthritis; but, my doctor says a person can't be on those "long term". So, just how am I suppose to get through the pain without any help from the doctors?

I have tried  self medicating with marijuana and alcohol, in the past; but, unfortunately do not like some of the other "side effects" that come with using those. "Side effects" like being illegal, drunkenness, hang overs, etc!  Plus, I  don't like the person I become while using those as "painkillers".

I am already on many medications for many illnesses and only want to have some small time each day that is pain free! Even in my sleep I experience pain, often waking  up from it! I have tried "meditation", relaxation techniques and deep breathing and sometimes find it will work for a very short period off time; but, it's such a short period of time that I never even get to "enjoy" it.

Unfortunately, due to my living arrangements and anxiety, I can not " enjoy" a  long, hot bath...... which use to help. I haven't been able to relax in a bath since I had my four daughters! First off, because I was a single mom but now because I just find my anxiety increasing with the thoughts that someone else may need the washroom or someone may come to the door.

Today and this evening the pain is from my right neck/shoulder down my arm and has been "driving me crazy" all day! This despite taking several Tylenol 3's and using Diclo ointment, which only served to make me fuzzy headed and yet still in pain.

I guess I'll self medicate tomorrow if the pain continues, especially since the arthritis in my hips and knees has also been "acting up".